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Post by monkey on Jan 13, 2014 21:08:57 GMT
I'm really struggling at the moment - I'm hoping that it's just due to the back to school change. LO's behaviour has become predictable recently and as a result more managable (in a strange sort of way). What I'm struggling with is her emotional response to all sorts of day to day things - more often that not it's just wrong and it doesn't seem to matter how much input / correction (including visuals) we provide it continues / gets worse. Her new phrase is "I don't care". She doesn't understand what it means or the context to use it in. We've tried to explain but she doesn't get it. We've tried ignoring but she says it more, we've tried following it through (I don't care if I have to sit by you - okay then come and sit by me - cue major tantrum), we've tried distraction and changing the subject but she always brings it back to the same. Today I've been slightly hysterical and decided that rather than get cross and frustrated I would laugh / do something silly and try to lighten the situation. The result was LO laughing hysterically back at me in a really false way. She did this until I stopped laughing and then went back to "I don't care" and her vocal tantrum. This made me realise how false most of her emotions her - she can turn on and off like a tap. I know that this is something that I need to overcome because we're not going to change LO overnight but it's pushing my buttons and I need a break. Thanks for reading. MMx
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Post by leo on Jan 13, 2014 21:44:02 GMT
Gosh, she sounds like a very confused little girl - and it must be exhausting for you.
I wonder if you are able to lower the tension around this behaviour by maybe deflecting it rather than giving a direct challenge or response to it? When she says 'I don't care' I wonder if you could try responses such as 'Oh that's a shame' or 'That's sad because I do' or 'Well, I love you anyway' or 'I feel ..., I wonder if you do too but are struggling with the words?' or a simple 'Is that how it feels for you?' and then move on (no actual challenge, all said in a caring, 'wondering' kind of manner).
My little boy Tsunami finds emotions incredibly difficult to get the hang of and he either copies other people's or guesses (and often gets the wrong one). Something that helped him was having a wall chart (grand name for 5 sheets of paper with faces drawn on!) that had labels of happy, sad, cross (he didn't really know the word angry), scared and 'don't know' written on them. I went through the day carrying a set of post it notes with me and as much as was humanly possible wrote little notes on them eg. Tsunami sat at the table ('without throwing his chair at me' was the unwritten bit!) or 'I saw Tsunami pass a bit of duplo to Hurricane'.
Each afternoon/early evening, we would sit down and I would stick the post it notes on the wall chart according to where it should go. I did it this way for a few reasons - firstly, he could not cope at that time with identifying any emotions himself, let alone displaying his own - so these were my feelings going on display; secondly, he is a child who cannot cope with praise or thinking about emotions when still in that particular situation (all praise and talking about emotions has to be delayed and separated from the actual event).
We moved on to him being able to put the notes up for me when I told him which face they needed to go onto, then him choosing for himself which face to put them on, then slowly me starting to write 1 thing for him to put up about himself/for himself (I think this is when I added the 'I don't know' face as it gave him a sort of 'get out' clause when it was too tough or he simply really didn't know).
Once he had got the hang of this, we started making paintings and collages of things that made each of us happy (always started anything about emotions with lots of happy stuff). He is unable to generate ideas for himself so I always have to give him suggestions - but he is now able to tell me happy or sad when I present him with a situation/event. During difficult times, his brother uses a 'feelings ruler' to show his emotions (simply a ruler sized/shaped piece of card with different facial expressions drawn on - there is a paperclip attached to the top and he slides it along to point at the face of how he's feeling). It seems to help him to have something non verbal to use.
Tsunami can also appear to turn his emotions on and off like a tap. He can be in a howling, spitting, biting, kicking rage when he spots a plane in the sky, calms instantly and says 'Oh Mummy, can you see that plane, isn't it leaving a lovely jet trail...' then switch instantly back into the tantrum!
I think sometimes, children who present like your daughter is (and as Tsunami does) are those who are maybe very disconnected from their feelings because they have become so used to hiding them behind a great big protective wall in order to feel/stay safe - and then they lose the gateway through that wall and have no idea what they are feeling when. Does she also struggle with not feeling pain appropriately? Does she have appropriate separation anxiety? (or like Tsunami is she 'apparently' perfectly happy whoever she is with and doesn't give you a backwards glance?)
There could also be a language elelment in this - does she have any language delay? Especially in terms of her understanding (ability to follow instructions, reading comprehension, ability to tell a 'story' of the events that have happened in her day...) If this is the case then trying to explain in a language based way just isn't going to work and would be incredibly frustrating for you.
It is exhausting and confusing to parent a child who has so little concept of their own feelings and I'm not surprised you are struggling. There are some positives though - you are saying that she has become more predictable lately and thus more manageable. Sorry if this is more of a ramble than a help!
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Post by monkey on Jan 13, 2014 22:04:32 GMT
Thank you Leo for your comment. I like your idea of the wall chart. We've been trying to talk lots about emotions - we've been looking at Mr Men books and Thomas the Tank which have been useful. I find that visuals are more helpful as language, as you say, seems too much. And yes, you're exactly right with the not feeling pain appropriately and inappropriate separation anxiety. Thanks for your understanding and encouragement. I'm going to try the chart. MMx
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Post by ham on Jan 13, 2014 22:26:32 GMT
One thing that helped my Dd was to vocalise to her when I was experienceing an emotion -pretending to be sad happy did not do it for her.the I would also name hers so she could understand what it was to feel sad, angry etc
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Post by flowerpower on Jan 13, 2014 22:28:10 GMT
Hi MM Sorry I have no words of wisdom just wonted you to know I was thinking about you xxx FP
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Post by flutterby on Jan 15, 2014 14:09:29 GMT
Monkey, I was just going to start a new thread and then saw yours. - So much similarity, I mean the unreal emotions, going from hysterics into smiley face and back, only my little one is much younger. I am struggling terribly with all this at the mo, all made worse by her also gong through terrible twos anyway and how do you distinguish what is what. Her language is good for her age, still she has no clue about her own emotions at that age anyway, made worse by the fact that she seems to think she must rely on herself.
Feeling so exhausted myself, I have given an awful lot during the last six months, but life is no fun and I am dreading what each day may bring. I have had some support from a psychologist, but I am getting to the point where I feel I need more help than LO. She is trying so hard to make me angry and slowly but steadily she is succeeding. I feel I need a break and on a regular basis otherwise I will not be any good in supporting her.
Sorry if I have slightly hijacked your post. But it looks like we are sadly in the same place. xx
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Post by sooz on Jan 15, 2014 16:50:41 GMT
I did an attachment course last year through camhs which was very helpful for my understanding of what is going on with ds.
I think most of it was based on Dan Hughes style.
Much as Leo says, it can help to identify the feeling for them, without directly telling them how they feel, so lots of 'wondering if' or I think. I've tried this with ds and it has helped. Also naming my own feelings helps. It's ok to say something like 'I think you feel sad because x or y' but leave it there, don't offer a solution. So, you are accepting how they feel is valid, acknowledging you understand, telling them it's ok to feel that way.
It's also scary when emotions take over, as adults we've learned a certain amount of restraint, plus we know it will pass and things will return to normal, but for kids they don't always know that and can feel out of control and terrified by the overwhelming feeling they are experiencing.
So difficult to untangle though when they are flitting about! X
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Post by monkey on Jan 15, 2014 20:53:16 GMT
Hi Flutterby I was talking to another adopter earlier this week and we both remarked and wondered how such small children can push your buttons to the point of making you angry when prior to adoption we were both calm, level headed people. I've had some time this week where I've been able to let off some steam and am feeling more positive in myself. It sounds as if you need to do this too. Do you have an adoption support group in your area you can go along to? I'm also doing an attachment course, similar to the one Sooz did by the sounds of it. I'm getting quite a lot out of meeting up with other adoptive parents most of whom are in the same boat as me. Does your LA run anything similar? I've also joined a group for parents with children with additional needs (non adoption related) and I think this has helped too. I hope things pick up for you as you sound pretty desperate. Best wishes. MMx
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Post by flutterby on Jan 16, 2014 14:27:13 GMT
Thanks Monkey, you are absolutely right. What really gets me - and scares me sometimes - is the look I get from little butterfly. Very dispassionate, cool, checking me out. Her eyes are saying, lets see what you are going to do now, when I do something. She seems so old and knowing that what she is about to do is going to cause havoc, and she is quite prepared to enjoy the show. I am worried for the future, if we do not manage to bring this under control. She can be such a sweet and lovely child, but personally, I feel that this is also just learned behaviour, kind of, this is what you do. It does not seem to come from an emotional angle. I still think that I have yet to see the real butterfly, I do not think I have seen her yet, ever. It is all one mask above another. Very scary in a 2-year-old.
Our LA are doing a course, but at the mo, I would not be able to attend, because LOs behaviour escalates so much if I am not available when she is awake. And I cannot send her to nursery yet, she just would not cope.
For me to stay sane, I need people around me. Problem is, I am re-jigging my whole social life, our "support network" fell apart on day one of placement, my still friends have not got children in this age range any longer and all of them work, so I am struggling to try to make new friends. It does take some time to get to a point where you feel comfortable about talking nitty gritty issues. Well, I am ok about it, but I get the distinct impression most people I might talk to would not, or would not get it. But I am doing my best to at least get some me time at night and go to the gym once or twice a week to get rid of some excess negative energy.
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Post by Deleted on Jan 16, 2014 20:26:17 GMT
Monkey and Flutterby, just reading your posts about you both wanting to get in touch with other adopters who "get it".
Have you had a look at the "meet up with other adopters in your area" thread, on the security board. There may already be someone near you who is looking to meet others. If more members posted on there you would be able to see who is near you and pm each other and arrange to meet for a coffee and chat.
We have nearly 180 members, but most haven't posted on there and it is secure so only members can see it, not passerbys.
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Post by flowerpower on Jan 16, 2014 21:37:11 GMT
Hi JMK I have been looking for the "meet up with other adopters in your area" but don't seem to be Abel to find it can you bump it up please FP xx
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