Post by chotimonkey on Nov 28, 2019 16:35:34 GMT
We’re on day two... mr monkey and I have been away since yesterday morning in accommodation, managed to squeeze a little bit of pretty village time in before seeing our little silverback.
First day was lovely... he’s a very round, very sweet little man. It was nice knowing him and knowing that I love him before the start of intros. Also nice doing it with experience... I could talk all the talk first time round about understanding about trauma and loss and possible difficulties arising, but this time I feel I know more and know that I love all my children more because of who they are and their complexities not less. Also nice having long ago let go of the child I thought I wanted and the mother I thought I wanted to be.
Lovely chilled afternoon rolling around on the floor, him letting us change him. Fc left us with a bottle and popped out (v close by and for a very little time) but came back to him asleep on us.
Fc said he was crashed out by 530... it’s so intense for them... he’s completely his own person, but has so many little looks and expressions that I’ve seen on his siblings and I feel like I’ve been loving him for a long time already...
lots of firsts today... buggy ride, going on his own in our car, coming to our ‘holiday house’
He’s done really well... let’s us care for him, but looks to fc for reassurance and v quiet for awhile at our accommodation, little bottom lip threatened to wobble a few times, because it was so different and fc wasn’t there, but we kept him in a big cuddle till he felt ready to leave a little play. Such a brave little soul, and although hard, it’s good to know that he’s not being picked up by anyone and be indiscrimmiinately fine with it.
I could cuddle him forever. We have a sling at home and he’s a bit of a back breaker, but I think I’ll be keeping him very close at home.
Fun and games begin tonight when squirrel, howler and george arrive.
I’ve not enjoyed being away from them... this bit will be hard for them, especially george, he’s a little man that very much needs his parents, his home, his stuff and his routine.
Fingers crossed for the next few days...
First day was lovely... he’s a very round, very sweet little man. It was nice knowing him and knowing that I love him before the start of intros. Also nice doing it with experience... I could talk all the talk first time round about understanding about trauma and loss and possible difficulties arising, but this time I feel I know more and know that I love all my children more because of who they are and their complexities not less. Also nice having long ago let go of the child I thought I wanted and the mother I thought I wanted to be.
Lovely chilled afternoon rolling around on the floor, him letting us change him. Fc left us with a bottle and popped out (v close by and for a very little time) but came back to him asleep on us.
Fc said he was crashed out by 530... it’s so intense for them... he’s completely his own person, but has so many little looks and expressions that I’ve seen on his siblings and I feel like I’ve been loving him for a long time already...
lots of firsts today... buggy ride, going on his own in our car, coming to our ‘holiday house’
He’s done really well... let’s us care for him, but looks to fc for reassurance and v quiet for awhile at our accommodation, little bottom lip threatened to wobble a few times, because it was so different and fc wasn’t there, but we kept him in a big cuddle till he felt ready to leave a little play. Such a brave little soul, and although hard, it’s good to know that he’s not being picked up by anyone and be indiscrimmiinately fine with it.
I could cuddle him forever. We have a sling at home and he’s a bit of a back breaker, but I think I’ll be keeping him very close at home.
Fun and games begin tonight when squirrel, howler and george arrive.
I’ve not enjoyed being away from them... this bit will be hard for them, especially george, he’s a little man that very much needs his parents, his home, his stuff and his routine.
Fingers crossed for the next few days...
