Lapwing was 8 today, her 4th birthday with us. It was a lovely day, she felt happy, she looked happy. She had a few distant moments where I could see she was struggling, but overall I am over-joyed that this little girl has finally had a birthday where I could see in her eyes she did believe I loved her and she did believe this was her life, her home, her bedroom, her toys, her mum , her dad, her brother, all there for her.
We went to the cinema and she cried whilst watching Smurfs The Lost village, so did I. There was a little moment about the girl smurf feeling like she did not belong and all the other smurfs rallying round to make her feel loved that was pitched just right for her to empathise .....Never thought I would write 'Smurfs and profound' in the same sentence, but that was the kind of strange and rather amazing day it was. Our little steps are taking us in the right direction.
Mum to AS Big Fish (19, 16 years at home) and AS Little Minnow (13, almost 6 years at home), came separately, and now a wonderful, feisty horse who lets me escape from kids with attitude and the drudgery of disability services and a top of the range adapted van provided by the council fulfilling their legal requirements!